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Bill Southern's avatar

You’ve got a healthy outlook on grief, Cindy - very helpful.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you, Bill. I appreciate your taking the time to share your thoughts.

Lynn's avatar

🩵🙏

Tina Hedin's avatar

Cindy, I really needed this today. I’ve been stuck too, numb, paralyzed, adrift. I know it will pass but it will also return again. I relate to so much of this. The pain of finding the spatula, I get it.

Kiki and I had the same thing with the Oscars as you and Annie had with the GG’s. Bittersweet memories now.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

Tina, I feel for you and appreciate your reaching out to affirm. I can usually push through by telling myself "it will be different soon" but this latest bout has been interminable. Last year I watched the Globes in her honor--this year I couldn't even acknowledge they were on. Sending love & support. xo

Ginni Simpson's avatar

Cindy—This was a beautiful, poignant, and brilliant piece of writing. You even found a way to add humor. Thank you for sharing your pain and love so deeply. In the midst of your personal winter, you still give so much to all of us lucky enough to read your words or be part of your writing group. Your loving heart and willingness to share so deeply are an incredible tribute to your Annie.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you, Ginni. That means a lot coming from you. ♥️

Kathleen Reimold's avatar

And you know, I’m sending it right back to you, don’t you?

Cindy Eastman's avatar

I certainly do ♥️

Sharon Charde's avatar

I was definitely stuck in grief— horrible, debilitating grief— for years. “Complicated grief”— it had a name— I could not move on. Love has been there for 38 years since he died, and counting. Much love to you.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

"Complicated." Of course it is...thank you for being there, Sharon. xo

Heidi Durig Heiby's avatar

Sending love right back! I love your Golden Globes story. Wow! Robin Williams. :-)

Yes, love is truly the only thing that's real. The rest is illusion in my opinion. Very stubborn hard illusion, but illusion. That's why it's all so difficult. We know innately that love is all there is. And look how so many are so damaged that they can't see it or act with it at all? So we must do it ourselves. See it. Act from it. Hope others notice and are able to do the same.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

We saw SO many stars that night! 🤩 It was so much fun. And you're right...love is love is love. It shows up in so many ways...like friendships from Erma :)

Heidi Durig Heiby's avatar

YES!!!!

Judith Owens-Manley's avatar

Lovely. Love is still here, right through the grief. Staying present to that really does provide something! I felt my daughter-in-law move further away this year, starting with the 5 year anniversary of her death. I thought it happened because it was time. . . time for her . . . and time for my son left here without her. And just two months ago, he met someone. I think there was finally room for someone else. And love will always be there for April, my daughter-in-law and hers for us.

Cindy Eastman's avatar

Oh, Judy, thank you for this. I know it's so hard, but I'm also so happy for, well, all of you. xo