But, lately—when has it been?
A few times since I began committing to a weekly newsletter in March 2021, I have missed a week. I’ve forgiven myself for it since it’s my own deadline…it’s not like my boss yells at me when it happens. (Sometimes she does.) But the weekly commitment helps me feel like I’m staying true to my work and my goals.
So, even though this week’s post looks like a post (talks like a post, walks like a post) it’s really not—it’s just me taking an opportunity to explain why I’m not writing this week. Probably as much for me as for you.
It feels ironic to me that October is Breast Cancer Awareness month, since this month has been all about being aware of breast cancer. And not in a pink and positive way. Since the end of September, when Annie tested out of the trial she had been in, she’s been dealing with more issues than can be reasonably managed at once. Out of the trial—in a trial—tests for the trial—out again—in the hospital—back to the oncologist and so on. We could barely process one thing before the next thing happened, and all of it included an hour-long drive to the appointments and admissions.
Then, this past Monday—we were looking at a week with nothing scheduled. Even though the suspension of treatment is a concern, a “nothing” week was welcome. The only thing on the calendar was some bloodwork—ten minutes away. No big deal. We even said it out loud: “It will be nice to have a chill week.”
You know what happened, right? The bloodwork delivered concerning results and Annie is back in the hospital. So, as Tony makes his way back from work out of town, I am staying at their place with Luca and the dog and the cat and the fish. And soccer practice and spirit week at school and trying to remember how to do this—this 24/7 parenting. And wishing I was with Annie at the hospital, but grateful I can be with Luca. And super grateful for supportive family and friends.
I might get something else written this week and maybe I’ll even finish the edits on my book. (Insert smirking emoji here.) I didn’t want to just not show up without an explanation and I was pretty sure you’d want an update about Annie.
We’re hanging in there…and I know you’re sending all of us your very best love and energy. Thank you. We all appreciate it.
xo
Cindy
Hugs
My thoughts and healing energy is with you and your family. Self care.
Sending support,
Nancy