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Paige La Grone Babcock's avatar

Bless you. My mother heart breaks with yours. I hold space for all that Annie is to and for you, and you to and for her.

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Lucy Karrys's avatar

My heart is with you .

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Nancy Dalton's avatar

so

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Bill Southern's avatar

Heartbreaking. . .

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Sally McQuillen's avatar

I love the picture of the two of you as I recognize the feeling of contentment in your face. It is just as I felt when I stood close to Christopher. Sending light to mix in with the tears.

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gael migalti-hanna's avatar

Your poignant words of grief and love bring me to tears. Somehow, I miss Annie for you. And, I think you are courageous to share such deep feelings with the world. Wishing you peace and comfort as each season arrives. xo

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you, Gael. I know what you mean...I miss Annie for Luca. And for all of her loved ones who are missing her, too. ♥

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gael migalti-hanna's avatar

Just knowing she is not physically here with us makes me miss her too!

Let me know how those spring blooms do. ~hugs!

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Eric Fulmer's avatar

Last Friday April 4 was the one year anniversary of losing our amazing son Nathaniel to suicide. I walk this dark road with you. Thank you for sharing your story.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing your Nathaniel with me. ♥

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The World According to Grace's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you for reading it :)

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How We Get Through This's avatar

Peace and comfort to you and your family. You never get over it ... but you do get better at living with it. Take care!

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you. ♥

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Katrina Anne Willis's avatar

Oh, Cindy. 💙

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Anne Arthur's avatar

Deep. Yes, you'll count the days forever. May God soothe your heart.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you. I appreciate your kind thoughts.

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Kevin Nash's avatar

Heart breaking, Cindy. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what you describe but I hope time brings more comfort.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you, Kevin. I hope so, too.

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Lois Campbell's avatar

We have had a similar loss, except I lost my husband...I know the loss of a child is way worse. On March 31s 2024t,Easter Sunday, my husband had a stroke, because the Dr put him on a blood thinner that he should not be on.

He lost the use of his left side but we were optimistic that once he got to rehab, he would get a lot better.

For 2.5 months I stayed with him in the hospital.

It was one complication after the other. He went through so much poking and prodding and got almost no P/T.

Anyway, I won't bother you with all the things that happened but I never thought it would end with is death.

He got 3 bouts of pneumonia and I know they didn't treat the last one aggressively.

It was horrible watching him breath and I have cried everyday.

He finally couldn't take anymore and asked to go on comfort care.

He lasted another day and on June 20th,at 7:24 pm , while I was holding his hand, he took his last breath...5 days before his 72nd birthday 😥.

I am 73 and when he died effectively,so did I.

Just existing,praying for God to take me.

I will pray you.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

The last thing we need to do is compare our grief to others. Loss is loss, Lois and I'm so sorry for yours. Thanks for the courage it took to share your story with me. I am honored by it. xo

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SophisticatedBob's avatar

My story is 100,000 hours long, gut wrenching, and dramatic. But I've never heard a better explanation than "I lost my north star". Mine died in late September, 2020.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

I'm so sorry for the loss of your north star...it can be debilitating, can't it? ♥

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Lois Campbell's avatar

Thanks for your kind words Cindy❤️

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Rea de Miranda's avatar

When my precious son Emile, died by suicide, it felt like I passed away with him. In a way it was true, because my life with him, also died that awful day. Every date tore me apart, I howled in agony. I was sure I won't survive the hell.

Here I am, 19 years later and I did survive.

Sending you peaceful and positive thoughts. We are not alone.

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

It's amazing how the time that we thought we'd never be able to endure passes anyway. Thank you for your thoughts...sending love back to you. xo

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Cathy Howlett's avatar

I am so so sorry for your loss 💔

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Cindy Eastman's avatar

Thank you, Cathy. ♥

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