First of all: Thank you. When I write about Annie, the cancer, the unfairness of it all, her strength, my struggle—you all show up. You show up in emails and texts and treats. So thank you for the love and support. It is a real and necessary thing and I’m grateful. But I’ll be honest, there is nothing about this last year, this wretched diagnosis—cancer at all—that is easy to take. And that’s what’s been on my mind lately . . . I now have to think differently.
On par with David Leite below (yet a full 6 months later) - I enjoy walks & when home in CT, would meet up with you just-about-ANYWHERE. Some of my fav spots: White Memorial, SteepRock, Flanders, Pratt, LONG River Walks along the Housatonic yet I'm open to meeting you on your front stoop. with love, Sara (& Dinesh)
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As silly and as insignificant as it may be, the pool is always there for you. If it takes your mind off of things, even for a little bit, then it's Aperol spritzes and laps. xoxo.
About you and anger in these days...During the time my sister Margaret was dying from brain cancer, Mom kept a journal. Dad gave me the journals a year or so after Mom died. I was startled and shocked by how angry Mom's entries were. I had watched her care for Margaret with such love and devotion, and we often told each other later that we were glad that we'd responded to Marg with love and devotion. But Mom was pissed - at some of her friends, at Dad, at the medical people, and certainly at God.
So I would hope that your anger would not make you feel guilty or bad. You're a Mom and a Momma bear. You love your daughter fiercely. And when you're angry, so be it! God bless you. Sue
Adjusting to yet another new normal is exhausting and, I feel, even frightening. Cindy, you are strong and wise. I often glean nuggets from your writing as I have again from this post. Thank you for publicly sharing your heart. - - You ALL are in my heart! Continued prayers for healing, strength, peace and wisdom.
differently.. always the grammarian.. we dinosaurs 😍dreams to reality are not an easy change … no words of wisdom.. I enjoy what you wrote… and yes there is an overuse of ellipses 🤷
resistance to thinking differently is futile,that which we resist, ~persists~ Living with loved ones ,who have Cancer, gawd Lordy...I get it ,but you've ~got~it Suzie and Annie, i'm on e mail overwhelm but neeed to go back and read your last post. I find myself being travel agent and caregiver to my Spouse, and losing myself ...
On par with David Leite below (yet a full 6 months later) - I enjoy walks & when home in CT, would meet up with you just-about-ANYWHERE. Some of my fav spots: White Memorial, SteepRock, Flanders, Pratt, LONG River Walks along the Housatonic yet I'm open to meeting you on your front stoop. with love, Sara (& Dinesh)
As silly and as insignificant as it may be, the pool is always there for you. If it takes your mind off of things, even for a little bit, then it's Aperol spritzes and laps. xoxo.
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Cindy,
About you and anger in these days...During the time my sister Margaret was dying from brain cancer, Mom kept a journal. Dad gave me the journals a year or so after Mom died. I was startled and shocked by how angry Mom's entries were. I had watched her care for Margaret with such love and devotion, and we often told each other later that we were glad that we'd responded to Marg with love and devotion. But Mom was pissed - at some of her friends, at Dad, at the medical people, and certainly at God.
So I would hope that your anger would not make you feel guilty or bad. You're a Mom and a Momma bear. You love your daughter fiercely. And when you're angry, so be it! God bless you. Sue
Adjusting to yet another new normal is exhausting and, I feel, even frightening. Cindy, you are strong and wise. I often glean nuggets from your writing as I have again from this post. Thank you for publicly sharing your heart. - - You ALL are in my heart! Continued prayers for healing, strength, peace and wisdom.
Thinking of you, Annie, Christopher & Angelo. Emailing you now. Loving you.
differently.. always the grammarian.. we dinosaurs 😍dreams to reality are not an easy change … no words of wisdom.. I enjoy what you wrote… and yes there is an overuse of ellipses 🤷
resistance to thinking differently is futile,that which we resist, ~persists~ Living with loved ones ,who have Cancer, gawd Lordy...I get it ,but you've ~got~it Suzie and Annie, i'm on e mail overwhelm but neeed to go back and read your last post. I find myself being travel agent and caregiver to my Spouse, and losing myself ...
You are such a strong woman. I pray every day that Annie gets better! God bless you all as you go through these trying times.
Prayers for your continued strength.